20somethingteen |
I live in Manchester, I do a degree at university and I breathe. Daily. Nice to meet you. I have made a huge list of places I want to go and things I want to do or achieve by the end of my degree. I am determined to complete it. This is my story. |
MORNING ALL!
In such a good mood today :) Tweetie has finally come out for the Mac which made me mildly happy and then found out I’d lost another 2lbs, woo! I’m not exactly obese but I’ve always had this belly that has hung around, annoying me with the way it wobbles and is generally always there making me feel like an ugly disappointment. Reminds me of my mother, actually.
So, now I’m going to indulge you in something from my past. There was someone in my life a while back whom I pretty much idolised, in a sort of i-love-you-and-want-to-do-everything-you-do kind of way. It wasn’t a crush (let’s just say she wasn’t my type) but it may’s well have been. So basically I haven’t been able to shake this feeling of idolising her ever since, everything she did just seemed so cool and fresh to me that I wanted to do exactly the same.. but then I went to uni, and things kind of changed. I didn’t talk to her for a long time and we pretty much lost touch. I reckon this was good for me ‘cause it let me be independent and so on. Anyway. I’ve started to feel less and less attached to her recently and last night kind of cemented that when I saw some of her Twitter updates and realised: she’s actually quite boring. In a interesting-and-unique-when-you-first-meet-her-but-monotonous-and-unoriginal-when-you-get-to-know-her way. She just did it much better than most people. Convinced me for three years anyway. So basically I’m over it :) this is a big step forward since now I can focus on what I want to do and who I want to become, and The List is a big part of that!
I don’t think that really does justice how much better I feel since this revelation. Hmm. Imagine standing on top of Everest and screaming into the wind. While orgasming. And giving birth. In a thunderstorm. That’s how much of a release it feels like.
Not entirely sure what I’m going to get up to today but I hope it’s worthwhile. Having a Sims 3 fest with my sister later hopefully, which should result in many a fun time had. Haven’t really played it much since I got it. I think I have PIS - Purchase Ideology Syndrome. I buy things imagining they will enrich my life when actually, at the end of the day, it’s just a DVD full of data. Meh. The game is good, and very different from the others, but I think the Sims is the kind of thing for me that I can only play every so often. Oh well.
Should probably start packing my stuff up since I am to be vacating my room for visiting family, and then the day after they leave I’m moving back to Manchester, so I may’s well pack now. Hmmm. I only unpacked like a week ago.
Anyway, just a quick one today, not much else to update.
Why does this M&S chewing gum taste like liquorice?
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